Indifference
I find it difficult to do what other normal people do at this time of the day. Sleeping has become such a chore that I have taught my mind to resent it even though my body is clearly showing signs of withdrawal. For me, a mere 4 hours seems luxurious, if not decadent, because I have taught myself to stay awake even when I need the rest.
Getting up in the morning is never easy for me, especially since I start really early. By the time I'm out of the doorstep, I join the ranks of many other early risers that commute on the train towards the city to our desks where we pursue the ultimate new meaning of urban life: to sustain oneself for tomorrow by shedding blood and sweat for today.
And as my body withdraws itself from the work I am doing, I am constantly finding myself out of energy at the end of the day, fueled by constant late night beinges at Hungry Jacks and a low intake of water.
I think at the rate I am going, I am killing myself.
People all around me seem so happy, or at least, so in control of their happiness. As for me, happiness is a constant struggle to keep alive especially when you are stuck in the cycle of work-study-sleep-eat-washdishes-sleep-eat-work-study
My resolution for tomorrow? An early night sleep and no bulshit at the table.
Getting up in the morning is never easy for me, especially since I start really early. By the time I'm out of the doorstep, I join the ranks of many other early risers that commute on the train towards the city to our desks where we pursue the ultimate new meaning of urban life: to sustain oneself for tomorrow by shedding blood and sweat for today.
And as my body withdraws itself from the work I am doing, I am constantly finding myself out of energy at the end of the day, fueled by constant late night beinges at Hungry Jacks and a low intake of water.
I think at the rate I am going, I am killing myself.
People all around me seem so happy, or at least, so in control of their happiness. As for me, happiness is a constant struggle to keep alive especially when you are stuck in the cycle of work-study-sleep-eat-washdishes-sleep-eat-work-study
My resolution for tomorrow? An early night sleep and no bulshit at the table.
Labels: rant
Fell from the sky at 2:48 AM
2 Comments:
it never been easy, i'm like you also, but do drink a lot of water and eat more natural food, in the midst of exams now,u should really rest sometimes dun fight it.
ah yes... waking up early in the morning really, really sucks. i'm the morning lrt taker too so i know how you feel, and yeah getting 4 hours of sleep each day is really bad for you. (as if i'm having more sleep than you lol... duh XD)
anyway, try to cope up ya? :) just try ur best...
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