Learning
"I'm learning", the boyfriend says. Apparently he prefers clubbing alone, and soon there will be a whole doctrine of things he'd like to do without me.
Which is perfectly fine, really, not that I mind. We don't have to remain adhered to each other like Siamese twins. We will have our own separate lives, stay in our own separate accomodation and do our own private things. We'll have less dinners together, perhaps. Saves money I guess. Less outings together. BUT, we are still a couple by name; a couple who doesn't do anything together because the other party is still "learning to adjust" to the duality.
No compromise, no thoughts about another's feelings. No discussion on the matter, hanya dilontarkan arahan muktamad.
Yes I get it lah.
After all I know, siapakah yang mampu menyoal kehendaknya kalau dia bengis. Siapakah yang mampu meluahkan rasa ketidakpuasan kalau dia tidak mampu bertolak ansur. Siapakah saya kalau saya perlu berpaling, perlu mengubah keperluan dan kehendak agar yang-itu memperoleh kepuasan.
Like a Barbie Doll.
Plastic.
No regrets. It's a learning process.
Which is perfectly fine, really, not that I mind. We don't have to remain adhered to each other like Siamese twins. We will have our own separate lives, stay in our own separate accomodation and do our own private things. We'll have less dinners together, perhaps. Saves money I guess. Less outings together. BUT, we are still a couple by name; a couple who doesn't do anything together because the other party is still "learning to adjust" to the duality.
No compromise, no thoughts about another's feelings. No discussion on the matter, hanya dilontarkan arahan muktamad.
Yes I get it lah.
After all I know, siapakah yang mampu menyoal kehendaknya kalau dia bengis. Siapakah yang mampu meluahkan rasa ketidakpuasan kalau dia tidak mampu bertolak ansur. Siapakah saya kalau saya perlu berpaling, perlu mengubah keperluan dan kehendak agar yang-itu memperoleh kepuasan.
Like a Barbie Doll.
Plastic.
No regrets. It's a learning process.
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Fell from the sky at 3:25 AM
2 Comments:
That's very big of you, this learning. You could respond in so many other ways.
有時真覺得這是場玩不完的遊戲，不過當其中一個人願意去面對、去改變，伴侶也會隨之有所改變的。當妳在親密關係中向前跨一步，若對方是真實的伴侶，他一定會跟上來的。
有一種毒藥，名叫愛情受控於危險的愛情之中.
愛情就像毒品，很容易讓人上癮，而失去重心。譬如，有些人愛上花心大羅蔔，卻不肯離開，有些人的伴侶會酗酒、賭博、甚至對自己暴力相向，當事人卻還是深深依戀對方，明知身陷泥沼中卻不肯自拔。難道她/他們不願意追求幸福嗎？其實，這都是患了「愛情上癮症」。
LINK:http://www.psygarden.com.tw/book/book.php?func=visit&bookid=148b272-fbe8327c5b-fe695d7ec2b60193eb3f148bf0d1b44&deepread=5
Just let you have somethings to refer to. :p
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